it's really amazing what one person, one friend can do in times of pain and
despair. i feel like counting my blessings tonight. i feel like singing there's
a light from the rocky horror picture show. i still feel divided, but i was blessed
today with a measure of relief. and it was so sweet, so pure and innocent, so
sincere, and from so young a source that i almost wept. ~blessed~
there was another larger, more pragmatic blessing from a different source on
this same day. like my youngest son once said, "if there's not a heaven, they'll
make one for grandmother and granddad." ~blessed~
there's jon in dallas. lived with us from the age of 17 to a little over 18. he's been
gone almost 7 years now. i still get regular phone calls, emails, letters, cards, and
postcards. usually no special occasion, just keeping in touch. a young man with a
good life in a fabulous city engaged to a lovely young woman. yet he takes the time
out for an old woman. ~blessed~
there's jody. in the navy and very newly married. grew up here in the neighborhood,
and in large part here at the house. there's a phone call and a long conversation at
least every other week. ~blessed~
there's chris, who moved out to his own place with his girl a couple of weeks ago.
he'd been living here a little over a year. he and his girl showed up this evening
to visit for an hour or so and share some good cheer. they heard my youngest
express some anxiety about my driving our car (which has been acting up) to my
appointment with the doctor tomorrow. since they will both be working the evening
shift, they insisted on driving me to my appointment. ~blessed~
there are my two sons, 31 and 19 who show their love in one way or another every
day. ~blessed~
there's my 4 year old granddaughter. she lives with us and we have custody, at least
for the time being. there's a better chance now that i can protect her for as long as she
needs protecting. though troubled, and suffering post traumatic stress disorder, she
fills my eyes and holds my heart. she's the moon and the sun. ~blessed~
there's my 26 year old daughter, about to get a second chance. and though i have no
doubt that the road will be long and rocky i'm so very grateful, even in my fear.
~blessed~
the friend i mentioned in the opening set it all in motion. he simply came over to
visit for a few hours and watch a movie. and he presented a poem he'd written for me.
a poem of understanding, a poem of hope and encouragement. i haven't asked his
permission to post it, and probably won't. i haven't shown it to anyone else and
probably won't. i think i want to be selfish and keep this for myself. at least for now.
it's really fairly good, but what makes it truly shine is the caring, the simple act of
friendship, the thought behind it, the overall good will.
it was a pretty good day.
and so as i try to do most of the time, i count my blessings.
of course these are not all, but they're more than enough to reflect on this evening.
courage.
in one way or another, we are all blessed.